It's been a minute

Hi Everybody,

It's been a while since my last blog huh? Well I really haven't had too much to say that I felt I should air out in the open. Most of my thoughts and issues have been very private and I choose to keep them that way until I guess I feel like the time is right. But until now I will continue to write when what I feel is burning a hole in my chest and I can't keep it in. It's been a very rough road here in California and honestly I'm ready to kick Cali to the curb and move on to the next chapter (i.e. next state). I want to leave here so bad I don't think I would mind if I had to walk to my next destination. Yea that was exaggerated but you get the picture! But what I can say is that I've learned a lot since being here and I am grateful for that. The one thing I've truly learned is to DO YOUR RESEARCH!!! I WISH I would have known how much this state SUCKS when it comes to finding a job! I've been here for almost a year and the only job I've been able to get is a two day a week tutoring position that pays me what I made it college! Yeah you read correctly. ME…the girl with TWO degrees working for college pay. At first I was super pissed but then I learn to appreciate the smaller things in life because something is better than nothing. I actually laugh at the fact that the “great state” of California gave me my credentials to teach here but yet they are not hiring any new teachers including those that have graduated from California education programs!!!  Can we say WASTE OF MONEY! Yea so that's what has been burning me up for the duration of my time here in this wonderful ** insert eye roll here ** state. Oh yea back to the learning I've done here. I've also truly learned that stuff happens. You can prepare yourself for the life you expect to have but if it's not in God's plan you are going to be in a whirlwind of hurt and pain. Which is where I've been since moving to this Illustrious ** insert what I really want to say here** state. I figured that since I have my Master's degree and was getting ready to work on a Doctorate pretty soon that hey, I am on a roll and they would be crazy not to hire me especially with my extensive background in reading, one of the most important skills of your LIFE!! But sadly not everyone thinks like me. I've been turned down left and right. There is this one school district here that has turned me down so much I'm pretty sure they know me by name and face now. So with that being said I never intended on my life being this way ESPECIALLY with the big 30 coming up soon. But I am trying really hard to rest in the fact that there are some blessings coming our way. Oh yea I did say our, that means the man I call my husband is still here (Hi Teej love you....MEANT IT) LOL. Also, I’m realizing that faith isn’t something that comes easy to me. I’ve always worked with the logical and concrete. I didn’t realize how much I relied on my own understand of how things work and not on God. That probably sounds bad but it’s the truth. I didn’t I gained faith until the move here and even now it’s still REALLY hard. I guess it’s true that old habits die hard. SO, to end this post I really didn’t have any questions to ask. It’s not like anyone is really answering them any way.  All I will ask is that you pray for my strength. Some days are better than others but all in all I must give praises to God for the life that I do have. Last thing before I leave and not write another post for like a year LOL, I came up with this I guess aphorism in my sleep one night and it stuck with me so I guess I’m meant to share it with someone. My aphorism is: Today is another beautiful day in God’s world. Live, Love, and Embrace it. J Easy to say yet sometimes hard to do but I am putting forth a better effort at it. Thanks for reading! See ya!